Was watching Made of Honor (Patrick Dempsey is show hawt), and there was this part when Hannah told Tom that she was going to marry Colin and then the song played:
Oasis – Stop Crying Your Heart Out
Hold up
Hold on
Don’t be scared
You’ll never change what’s been and goneMay your smile
Shine on
Don’t be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm‘Cause all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you’ll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart outGet up
Come on
Why you scared
You’ll never change what been and gone‘Cause all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you’ll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart outWhere all of the stars will fade away
Just try not to worry you’ll see them some day
Just take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart outStop crying your heart out…
So nice.
…
Re-read some stuff someone wrote, and I realized that I was really such a bitch.
I guess it’s all about right people, right time after all.
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Am gonna look at 3 other boutiques before making the final decision. There are just so many designs and so many different types of gowns out there! So overwhelming 
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It has been extremely tiring, the past few days.
My 3-week training course started on Tuesday, and I would be soaked in sweat from head to toe from practising drills and marching and stuff every day.
My arms ache. My feet hurt.
I look forward to showers everyday.
And I’m so glad that it will be Friday tomorrow. Looking forward to the weekend!
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1. Chaperoning the students to the museum. They found it boring, but I thought it was pretty interesting!
2. Discovering my love for the iPhone. I wanna get one 
(yes, I’m quite slow with respect to being hyped up over it…)
3. Calling up one bridal boutique today to make an appointment for next week. Need to keep my fingers crossed to see if the designs are nice!
4. Looking through the results of the cohort and am quite comforted to say that their results are pretty ok. 
5. Telling my form class that tomorrow is my last day of school with them.
and finally, nua-ing
Marked near 280 scripts, and I’m finally done.
Wasn’t too pleased with what I saw what I collated the marks for their first paper.
And then I wondered, is it just me or it’s them as well? Was the first paper (of which I set) that bad?
Either way, it’s already over and there’s nothing that can be done anymore.
At least for now.
Can’t wait to collate their marks for their second paper before I really know how they have fared.
Hope it won’t be as bad as I have imagined…
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Will be going for this two and a half weeks course, and… I guess I’m half looking forward to it.
Half not looking forward to it because I would be missing the last two weeks of my first academic year.
Can’t even say a proper goodbye or pass them their report books.
Oh well.
The course does look a teensy bit interesting, so… we’ll see how it goes.
As usual.
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We checked out our first hotel (machiam we are buying over one hahaha), and we weren’t very impressed.
We’ll be visiting two other places next week (or is it three?), and I guess we would probably settle on one as soon as we could.
We were originally thinking of a rooftop thing, but seems like no one has ever done an entire dinner on it. Sigh. But well, one of the places that we were looking at has lovely themes; hopefully we can customize it and make the entire thing less cliche!
So exciting
(by her.)
It feels surreal wearing a ring on my ring finger, and seeing it sparkle so brightly at me everyday.
I’m not quite used to the fact that it’s there. Maybe I never like feeling bounded, which explains the lack of accessories on my hands, fingers, around my neck…
It teases me from time to time, reminding me that I no longer have that free will to solely think for myself. I need to think about “us”, how “we” will face it, when “we” will do it, where “we” shall have it, what “we” think about it, who “we” shall invite…
But yes, we are getting married. And my heart is bursting with so much joy.
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And I see sadness in your eyes, young one
Reached out my hand, but you refused to accept
And you quietly slipped away into the sands of time
I tried to hold on, but you have gone, so faraway, I stopped none.
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I guess now the question is, when?
For as long as I don’t know, I cannot truly feel safe.
And that’s kinda silly, I know
But I’m just an ugly duckling, waiting to grow up.
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Just found out that my ex got engaged just about a week plus ago.
Nothing unexpected, I guess.
After all, the love we had was a disillusion.
It was destructive.
And I only held on because I was stubborn.
So I chose to let it go, knowing that I wouldn’t feel too sad about the loss.
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Somehow, knowing about his engagement made me even more sure about something.
If a guy wants to marry you, he will, in the shortest time possible.
I guess I’m happy for him. After all, he had been struggling.
And I know I can’t be the one for him.
I’m not anyone’s saviour. I was unlike them. I couldn’t make them realize.
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I wanna run away and hide now.
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(from him.)
I started off the journey feeling quite sad. I’ve been exploring various possibilities of why it happened, but I think no matter what, I’m already feeling hurt and I guess it became meaningless to find out why.
There isn’t much of school left, and I quite look forward to the conclusion of my first 1 1/2 years of work. It’s been especially tiring during Term 3, and I guess Term 3 made me realize that I have got to learn how to exercise emotional distancing, or I will burn out much sooner than I thought.
I finally took time off today, and I felt so much better being all by myself and letting my (sad) thoughts swim away into the dark waters of the dream realm.
The end is near, and I am glad.
It was a nice boogie woogie Teachers’ Day celebration, and I have, again, made a fool out of myself.
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“I see that there is so much pain in you.”
“We can do this together.”
“My heart sank.”
Phrases I hear over and over again, and then poof, it happened.
