bittersweet solitude of a fireflower

Was out for nearly 12 hours today doing loads of stuff, and it has been fun but kinda tiring…

Went for a secondary school fair today to help out with promoting the school, and I talked so much! Didn’t help when the weather was so incredibly humid and not all the fans in the classroom were working learnt quite a fair bit in terms of interacting with primary 6 kids and telling them more about the school

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Went for our first (and might be the only) bridal boutique because they were having this promotion where they have this collaboration with one of my favourite photographers, and we were having lots of fun choosing gowns for me

The feeling is just so surreal, looking myself in huge white dresses attempting to make my waist small.

And I felt so… warm and fuzzy, as he sat there watching and telling the designer what he thought would look good on me.

The designer was a pretty nice guy too

Need to really consider long and hard if this boutique shall be the one for us, because we’ve only got 1 week to decide before the promotion is off!

But so far… I quite like what I see, so the likelihood to staying with them should be high.

We’ve also decided on the hotel already, although we haven’t actually gotten back to them. Haha. We did take a look at another hotel which had a very nice view of the port, but we didn’t feel comfortable with how fluid things could be; we much prefer to get what we see, and not imagine what we would get…

So fun

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Had some time to kill before going over to his friend’s daughter’s 1st birthday party, and so we went to Dempsey to check out a car wash event (I swear, Adrian Pang is just so hot), ate some Ben & Jerry’s (strawberry cheesecake is nice, but NOT helpful AT ALL to losing weight and fitting into that gown), and had a neck and shoulder massage at our favourite place.

Looking at so many kids at the party, I wonder when it’ll be our turn.

There’s just so many things I want to do with you.

I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you.

It’s finally over.

First thing in the morning was a mad rush to return the scripts to the kids, and… well, most of them could have done better, but it was their first exam for the year so I guess they just need to get used to this. Some did better than I’ve expected, some did worse, but well, it’s a good learning experience for everyone, including myself.

I’ve learnt a lot in this short period of time undertaking form teacher-ship. I needed to grow so quickly so soon, because I had additional responsibilities and obligations to deal with. My class had grown so much, and I’m proud of what they have become (or are becoming).

I guess I should have planned my departure better. I should have told them how proud I was of them, and how I wish I could be their form teacher again. But those words got stuck in my heart, and never got out of my mouth. Perhaps being in a stereotypical Chinese family had hindered me from expressing my true emotions, especially when they are needed the most.

But it’s ok, I guess. I need the emotional distancing anyway. It’ll be good, for them and for myself.

Need to really thank my co-form, though. She’ll be handling them for the remaining 2 weeks, and there are tons of admin work to settle

Well, I do hope that I can follow through with them to the next year. It’ll be a strenuous uphill climb, though…

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Met up with the social events coordinator at the hotel where we planned to have the dinner, and we were quite pleased with what we saw

Am starting to wonder, though, how can we make it more special, more truly us?

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Met up with the bestie like after a million years, and we had dinner at Pasta de Waraku at Marina Square.

Nice pasta, and I had another macha fix. Yums!

Adjourned to IndoChine for some drinks before heading off.

It’s been a long while since we last hung out like this, and it was nice.