bittersweet solitude of a fireflower

Just found out that my ex got engaged just about a week plus ago.

Nothing unexpected, I guess.

After all, the love we had was a disillusion.

It was destructive.

And I only held on because I was stubborn.

So I chose to let it go, knowing that I wouldn’t feel too sad about the loss.

…

Somehow, knowing about his engagement made me even more sure about something.

If a guy wants to marry you, he will, in the shortest time possible.

I guess I’m happy for him. After all, he had been struggling.

And I know I can’t be the one for him.

I’m not anyone’s saviour. I was unlike them. I couldn’t make them realize.

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I wanna run away and hide now.